Only Human

[mrdreamjeans]

This is the third of four song lyrics that I wrote some years ago that I decided to post. "Only Human" was written in response to an incident that happened to one of my friends on the road in "Phantom". This person was hurt by a partner cheating on him. (It was not defined as an open relationship.) I watched as his "friends" dismissed his pain and made excuses for the behavior of the partner. I was bewildered by this response. Enjoy.....


Only Human

Not like that, I tell myself,
Damn! You fooled me once again.
I trusted you to tell the truth,
But you were just a charlatan.

I can’t believe it happened.
Can’t suppress the thoughts,
Unbidden and unwelcome,
Raw and real and tossed.

Care about your feelings?
Now it’s more about my pain;
It twists and turns inside of me,
Unruly and untamed.

I was always on the outside,
On the outside looking in,
But you made me feel the magic once,
For once I thought I’d win.

A simple game of chance for you,
A stunning sleight of hand.
A puff of smoke, you disappeared,
Rogue lover in demand.

Only human.........
That’s what friends will say.
Only human...
It hurts; it goes away.

They use it so you won’t complain,
So you’ll gently close that door.
They sympathize, you minimize,
Wouldn’t want to bore.

Only human....
Nothing’s as it seemed
Only human.....
What exactly does that mean?

I guess I’ll never ever know
Who I really am.
I lost my way in Neverland,
Betrayed by Peter Pan.

Neil Badders Copyright 8-1-1996

Comments

[biggaloot.livejournal.com]

Bewildered? It seems pretty commonplace to me. Actually, it even seems mild; often it is accompanied by insensitive sarcasm as well. And it is displayed a lot more frequently than the requisite kindness that should be - even if such kindness has been given to them by the same person they now dismiss.

It recently happened to me, and from someone I least expected to act that way. I've known him for years. This person has received the benefit of my support after posting almost suicidal ramblings here on LJ, which got my immediate attention and support. But when I needed even just a tiny amount of support, it was referred to as "the pitty[sic] party". Go figure.

[mrdreamjeans.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry your friend was insensitive. I don't always have the right words to make someone feel better, but I do my best to listen and be supportive. I've had people in my life who were fun to be around and who amused me, but when they were critical or smartasses when I needed hugs ... when support was so badly needed, I realized that they weren't really friends...just people with a talent to amuse:) I don't allow toxic friends any more. Hugs to you!