Sexplanations:)

[mrdreamjeans]

"Isn't it better to feel something intensely even if you're wounded in the process?"

I'm pondering this question from a novel I just finished reading. It's talking about relationships, but I suppose it could apply to friendships and even to specific fetishes and sex acts.

I know emotional wounding is hard for me to take when it happens; but I think I would rather risk that, then feel nothing at all.

I am desiring a sexplanation:)

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[mountdfw.livejournal.com]

OTOH, there have been times when I willingly allowed myself to be degraded and used..

I vividly recall an instance where I was playing with a gent in public. As he finished with me, a different man stepped up, asked permission from the other guy, and proceeded to use me for his own gratification. It started a chain, and I honestly couldn't say whether it was 7 or 8 men involved... but they all used me as nothing more than a warm place to put a hard cock. When the last man finished, leaving me alone, sticky with the semen squirted on my body, I stood on shaking legs and started to leave.. but on the way out, I ran into another man, a giant of a guy.. No words were spoken, he just pulled me close and started fondling my butt.. and when he felt it already greased & loose, he just picked me up so my toes were barely brushing the ground, pinning me against his chest, trapping my arms, and rammed himself home. He was huge, and even after the prior play it was painful. He held me like a doll, pulling & pushing me on himself, till I heard his breath catch, and he pulled out to spray me from the nape of my neck to the small of my back. Then he set me on my feet and left, with never a word spoken.

At no point during the evening (after the first man) was I ever asked for my opinion. At no point did anyone touch my cock, or give any thought to my gratification. It left me feeling used, dirty, defiled, sore... and so very satiated. Willingly giving up control is an amazingly erotic, gratifying thing..