Quiet Night and Too Much Time to Think
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mrdreamjeansIt is rare that I sign online and my buddy list is blank, but it seems that everyone I know has something better to do tonight. Since I outlined my return to Texas, I've been a bit on the blue side. I know I am doing the right thing for me in terms of affordability, family and career, but I will miss my friends here in Seattle.
Sometimes, I seem to be best at missing folks, rather than being with them. Does anyone else start missing people before they are actually gone? Once I was on tour with "Evita" and two close friends visited me in the Bay area for a week. On my day off from shows in San Francisco at the Orpheum, we were having a wonderful dinner at a place on the Russian River after visiting the Redwoods. Casey and David were laughing at something I said and and suddenly David said, "Stop! You're missing us and we're still here."
I guess my melancholy was all too evident in my face. I try now to remind myself not to stare like I am capturing the moment forever. It makes folks uncomfortable and there will be more wonderful memories to remember. You can't freeze-frame life. It just seems like I am always leaving... yet, because of my career, that is most often the case.
I felt that way last night at Bearaoke. The DJ Jonathan was celebrating his birthday. His partner Pat was there with Jonathan's father and sister. I met fellow LiveJournaler BigSabu (Robert) who was very nice even with the rambling I do when I'm inexplicably shy; I also found out that Marvin, who sings often at Bearaoke, was also on Live Journal. A shout-out to UrsusNoir!
I felt sad, realizing that I was giving up getting to better know many of the guys at Bearaoke who have been a support network in the past year. Since I've toured for so many years, I've not often been able to make parties, join organizations or just hang with other similar-minded guys. My friends in different cities have often been the actors I know. This is a different group and it's been nice.
On the other hand, another part of me is anxious to pack and get back to Texas. I am focused on my health goals and have been vigorously pursuing theatre work via contacts in NYC. I hope to get back on tour, a place I realize is my comfort zone. My friend Denny said to me recently that he thinks I am most comfortable when I am looking forward to going home, but that I'm not good at being home. That gave me pause....Of course, I met Denny in Detroit on tour:)
Enough introspection:) This is insufferable! See what thinking too much can do! I am looking forward to my journey with Tim (baraksf) and to the new adventures to which it will lead. I do think it is the right thing to do for both of us. No risk, stagnation sets in. Life is about choices.
We've got lots of time to think. On our Big Move, we've got 5000 miles of insight to gain.
Sometimes, I seem to be best at missing folks, rather than being with them. Does anyone else start missing people before they are actually gone? Once I was on tour with "Evita" and two close friends visited me in the Bay area for a week. On my day off from shows in San Francisco at the Orpheum, we were having a wonderful dinner at a place on the Russian River after visiting the Redwoods. Casey and David were laughing at something I said and and suddenly David said, "Stop! You're missing us and we're still here."
I guess my melancholy was all too evident in my face. I try now to remind myself not to stare like I am capturing the moment forever. It makes folks uncomfortable and there will be more wonderful memories to remember. You can't freeze-frame life. It just seems like I am always leaving... yet, because of my career, that is most often the case.
I felt that way last night at Bearaoke. The DJ Jonathan was celebrating his birthday. His partner Pat was there with Jonathan's father and sister. I met fellow LiveJournaler BigSabu (Robert) who was very nice even with the rambling I do when I'm inexplicably shy; I also found out that Marvin, who sings often at Bearaoke, was also on Live Journal. A shout-out to UrsusNoir!
I felt sad, realizing that I was giving up getting to better know many of the guys at Bearaoke who have been a support network in the past year. Since I've toured for so many years, I've not often been able to make parties, join organizations or just hang with other similar-minded guys. My friends in different cities have often been the actors I know. This is a different group and it's been nice.
On the other hand, another part of me is anxious to pack and get back to Texas. I am focused on my health goals and have been vigorously pursuing theatre work via contacts in NYC. I hope to get back on tour, a place I realize is my comfort zone. My friend Denny said to me recently that he thinks I am most comfortable when I am looking forward to going home, but that I'm not good at being home. That gave me pause....Of course, I met Denny in Detroit on tour:)
Enough introspection:) This is insufferable! See what thinking too much can do
We've got lots of time to think. On our Big Move, we've got 5000 miles of insight to gain.
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"Since I outlined my return to Texas,..."
I visit my family in Houston often, major holidays, birthdays, anniversaries, etc.
BTW "MoLM" is one of my favorite musicals, up there with "Evita"
Re: "Since I outlined my return to Texas,..."
Date: 2004-05-08 10:26 am (UTC)Funny you should mention Evita. It is the show I've done more than any other...2 National Tours, 1 European Tour and 9 regional productions. Obviously, I love doing the show. In fact, I've been in Baltimore a couple of times with it. In case you haven't heard a new national tour is going out this Fall, opening in Boston in November.
Man of La Mancha has been a joy. I'm playing the Padre and we have an exceptional Cervantes and very strong company. I'd revisit the show and role again and again if the opportunity comes my way.
Please list me in your friends if you so desire.
Re: "Since I outlined my return to Texas,..."
Have you been to Royer's? On Round Top proper, great food and wonderful homemade pies!
My parents live west of Houston, almost near Katy (Renee Zelweger's hometown!)in the middle of non-descript suburban sprawl, the antithesis of my idea of urban living.
So I may have seen you on stage before, that's cool. MoLAM was my grandad's favorite musical, it was the first one I ever listened to with intent and enjoyed the story as much as the music and staging. Of course I'm dating myself, this was way back in the early 70's!!!
Looking forward to seeing you in EVITA in Baltimore, or DC!
Re: "Since I outlined my return to Texas,..."
Date: 2004-05-10 12:27 am (UTC)I've been to Round Top for the Antiques Festival and also have had the pies at Royers. Good memories:) I don't live that far from there, maybe 20-30 minutes. I'll probably be spending a lot of time in Katy this summer, as the Katy Mills Mall is the closest to Brenham, unless I head to Bryan/College Station and my alma mater Texas A&M. I go often to Katy to see movies with my twin nephews:)
Funny enough - I spent 2 years of my life playing a football player on tour in "The Best Little Whorehouse in Texas" back in the early '80s. To my knowledge, I am the only Aggie to play an Aggie professionally onstage. Also, my brother's first job after graduating from A&M was working as a supervisor at the egg processing plant in La Grange. I guess that's what you do when you get a Mechanized Agriculture degree...LOL!
Being an Aggie used to be fun until we selected a former CIA director as president and forever spoiled and soiled the prairie/campus by being so closely connected to the Bush family....Ah - Where's Ann Richards when you need her?
What took you to Baltimore?
"...not far from the Harbour and the police station..."
Speaking of morons, oops! sorry, I'm tired, it's very late, and I'm a bit cranky. So anyway, I was just going to say that my brother is an Aggie too, the good kind, though, petroleum engineering! (what else!). He also lives in Houston. I do visit Katy Mills every time I go down there. Most of my family is involved in oil, yet I'm the black sheep of the family, the "artistic" one :-)
I moved up (or down, as we thought at first) to B'more from DC, about 9 years ago. It was work related, the fact the there was 'none' to be found in DC in the early 90's (thanks to you-know-who!) made me look for high-end residential work in these here parts. Been on my own now for a couple of years (professionally speaking), have my own firm and work from home, can't beat that!
Ain't funny all this little coincidences? I love LiJo just for that!
Serendipity rules!
Have a good night! or good morning!?