Teaching My Heart

[mrdreamjeans]

I resolve from here on out to teach my heart to listen...then to speak. I will teach it to speak honestly and directly... with clarity, passion and compassion. I will listen to what other peoples’ hearts are saying to me and respond appropriately... and always with kindness.

I will continue to make the choice to be happy. During the times when it is a struggle, I will persevere. I can’t expect others to make me happy or even make the same choice, so I will take responsibility for my own happiness and my own actions.

When day-to-day living is tough .. .and it often is ... when I am lonely or alone ... which I often am ... when I am sad, tired or disappointed ... as can happen in the best of times ... I will utter the word “tsunamis” and change my day around. I will remember that the inconveniences and hurts I complain about ... the people who don’t treat me well are manageable problems ... are nothing compared to a disaster of the magnitude that just occurred across more than one continent.

I will appreciate the people in my life. I will explore how to make the relationships stronger. I will always come from a place of integrity and loyalty, but I will not suffer fools gladly. I will repeat the word “tsunamis”, take a deep breath and deal with the offending party in a mature, adult fashion.

I will learn to appreciate my body. I will not take my health for granted, but understand that I am blessed in having good health. I will allow myself to have more fun ... and more sex ... I’ve experienced sex in excess and I've abstained. More is better:)... but only with someone with a playful heart.

I will seek moderation and balance in the physical, emotional and spiritual sides of my being. I will be open to being loved. I will continue to love my exes David and Tim and to wish for them the happiness moving forward that I experienced in being loved by them and through loving them. They will remain in my life as family. I know they will support me when I find another person of their caliber and stumble my way through the birth of a new relationship. They were my lovers, always my friends and now as close to me as my brother.

Unconditional love is rare. It is desirable. I will be open to discovering it, experiencing it and offering it. Teaching my heart to listen even more carefully ... to speak more often and clearly ... will be my goal for 2005 and for the remainder of my life. It may make you uncomfortable, but you will never be in doubt how Neil ... MrDreamJeans ... Big Red ... Bubba ... The Dancing Bear ... or whatever you come to call me, feels about you.

HAPPY NEW YEAR FRIENDS AND LOVED ONES!