One Foot Out The Door
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mrdreamjeansWhether the reality matches my feelings, I've always felt like a man with one foot out the door when it comes to life. Over the 18 years I've been on Live Journal, most of you have seen me make change after change, struggling with any period of inertia, fighting the passage of time, railing at the universe, striving to bring the dreams in my drawer to light.
I've never been comfortable with routine; once routine sets in and if I've not identified new goals or dreams, I'm ready to take flight. Now that I've been in my current housing situation 3.5 years and don't have any urgent projects, I'm casting about looking for a fresh view, a big move. I'm ready to shake things up!
I don't necessarily look at my desire for change as a negative. Wanderlust is not always a bad thing. But, I feel compelled to be doing something productive every single day outside of my normal daily journey. From time to time I caution myself to be present in the moment, but I'm not very successful at doing that. I'm frequently looking into the future hoping to discover an exciting opportunity; but, I feel It's better than dwelling in the past. We can't change our personal history. I wonder if my theater peeps, of a certain age, spend more time on regret or creativity. I think being creative is a healthier proposition.
So, I resolve ... or is that re-resolve ... (I've made such promises before) to get my ass in gear, appreciate my current good health and mobility (after all, it's ten years since I nearly died, a free decade) and pursue a happier, more resonant and successful conclusion to my journey through life.
I hope my trip to Italy in November will be the kickoff to this new attitude! Meh, to one foot out the door!
I've never been comfortable with routine; once routine sets in and if I've not identified new goals or dreams, I'm ready to take flight. Now that I've been in my current housing situation 3.5 years and don't have any urgent projects, I'm casting about looking for a fresh view, a big move. I'm ready to shake things up!
I don't necessarily look at my desire for change as a negative. Wanderlust is not always a bad thing. But, I feel compelled to be doing something productive every single day outside of my normal daily journey. From time to time I caution myself to be present in the moment, but I'm not very successful at doing that. I'm frequently looking into the future hoping to discover an exciting opportunity; but, I feel It's better than dwelling in the past. We can't change our personal history. I wonder if my theater peeps, of a certain age, spend more time on regret or creativity. I think being creative is a healthier proposition.
So, I resolve ... or is that re-resolve ... (I've made such promises before) to get my ass in gear, appreciate my current good health and mobility (after all, it's ten years since I nearly died, a free decade) and pursue a happier, more resonant and successful conclusion to my journey through life.
I hope my trip to Italy in November will be the kickoff to this new attitude! Meh, to one foot out the door!
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