the plan
Jul. 24th, 2025 09:14 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I've got an 11:20am emergency dental appointment. I've got a 3pm emergency vet appointment in another city at the U of Minnesota vet hospital. My 2 regular vets and a 3rd vet had no availability and recommended urgent care.
It took some effort, but I figured out how to order a Lyft with pet privileges. Not difficult once you know how to do it. Living alone has its own challenges. Living without a car presents other challenges. Living alone without a car and needing to manage 2 medical emergencies at once does make planning a little more stressful than usual.
It seems accomplished, though. Now, I'm just waiting until it's time to take the metro bus to the medical center for my dentist visit.
constipated kitty
Jul. 23rd, 2025 07:26 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
After work today, it was clear that Hope is severely constipated again. It started with the puking. Now, she's got everything out of her belly, but she squats everywhere in the house and tries but fails repeatedly to poop. I've already mixed some laxative again in her soft food, but she won't eat or drink anything. I'll have to try getting a vet appointment for her tomorrow.
Unfortunately, I've already got an emergency dental appointment for myself tomorrow morning. I cracked the temporary cap on my molar again, waiting to get the permanent cap. We'll see if the dentist just repairs it with another temp until the permanent mold arrives, or they decide this tooth is too problematic and just pull it finally.
The cat is meowling in pain/discomfort occasionally. Thankfully, I'm in no physical pain myself. We'll both have an unpleasant evening though, waiting for tomorrow to arrive and hopefully some peace of mind for both of us.
Lovely morning
Jul. 23rd, 2025 08:13 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Last night I had the most delicious dinner that included roasted rosemary potatoes which I did not finish. This morning they woke up in the air fryer and were topped with some bacon and a scrambled egg. Yum. I think I may have that exact dinner again tonight. So... tomorrow morning... oh, wait, no. Tomorrow morning is the free continental breakfast. They are doing some kitchen fixing of some equipment so can't cook breakfast so they are laying out a continental spread and inviting everyone to come and get it. My plan is to stop by after volleyball. The leftover rosemary potatoes will keep.
Hazel clearly heard me yesterday. I was out in the elbow when she went down to visit Bonny and give her an update. I didn't see either after but I know Bonny appreciated being looped in directly. And I appreciate sharing the load for sure!
Today I got no commitments. I will probably go over to the second hand shop when it opens. The Mariners game is a day game so there's that to watch.

It was fine and it is done
Jul. 22nd, 2025 11:13 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I did get to hear - for the 8 millionth time - about how her sons delivered papers when they were kids and then picked up the old papers and sold them to recycling and then were able to buy their own first cars. Both of these 'kids' are now in their 60's. And about her hip replacement (30 years ago) and the problem with the pin, which she calls a nail, 5 years later.
We stopped at Safeway on the way home and I picked up a few things but totally forgot the one thing on my list and that is after I looked at my list once we were in the store. So I'm clearly heading for Hazelville myownself.
I have 2 hours before the cleaner comes. Yahoo.
Zoe status
Jul. 22nd, 2025 10:58 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
She has lost most of her hearing and much of her eyesight. Neither are a problem. She sleeps better for it. I'll throw a treat on our dark floor for her and she can't find it so I have to show it to her. All easily worked around.
The two problems are dementia and arthritis. The latter requires drugs to cope that exacerbate the former.
She exhibits what is called 'sundowners' syndrome which is an early evening restlessness. Walking around the house panting heavily in an anxious manner. I give her trazodone to counteract this and it is effective. Too much knocks her out which is OK if not optimum.
The big problem is that being too hot, coming back from a walk, being in pain, suffering from dementia all have the same single symptom: continous panting. That's it. No way to differentiate.
So it is really hard to tell how much pain she is in and that is the one factor that would motivate me to consider euthanasia which, of course, I think about all the time.
There is a growing palliative care, senior care, euthanasia care for pets at home industry. There are a bunch of euthanasia adverts as that is a discrete service that can be easily packaged and marketed. Hospice and palliative care are more difficult. There is a vet group that does it but not near me.
All the articles say to reach out to your vet. I emailed mine but got no response. So I guess I need to go there in person.
Zoe and Toby and I still go on walks nearly every day. Zoe is off leash and walks right behind me stopping for all the important canine scent interactions writing notes along the way. She can't hear the dogs barking at her so is sublimely non reactive.
Having eaten and so taken drugs and walked, she is now lying on the floor behind me happy to be in my office with me here panting sometimes and sleeping on and off.
She's got a great life for the most part. So hard to know when to end it.

Timber Ridge Taxi
Jul. 22nd, 2025 08:32 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I'm very tempted to say gimme the piss and you stay here. But, their health care provider is pretty sticky about stuff and I don't want to make the trip for nothing. So, I'll hang out and do nothing til 10. Take her and come home for lunch and then sit in the elbow while the cleaner cleans and finally get some me time about 2:30.
I do think that Hazel and I are going to have a chat about letting Bonny in on some of this action. I'm going to suggest we give Bonny a turn. I should have done that last night. Bonny has said many times to them and to me that she wants to help. Hazel somehow understands that Bonny's help is only available in the afternoon and she wanted to do this first thing. ARUGH. Regardless, I'm going to tell Hazel that Bonny is feeling left out.
The place we are going is very near other stuff, too. Like the shoe store I want to go to and a couple of other stores. But, not with Hazel.
Man, I am a whiner today!! I'd better fix my attitude before 10. Also I'm thinking there may be a gas purchase needed soon.
In other news. My $4 phone case from Amazon is perfect! 2 days with no case on my phone was stressful. That damn thing is slippery when naked. This case is slim and grippy and worth every one of those 400 pennies.

my optimism is getting shaky
Jul. 21st, 2025 09:27 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Climate change remains, as it was in 2019, my #1 topic of concern requiring immediate political action worldwide. I haven't really discussed climate news for... a long while. It's because what news I find is usually bad. Very bad.
I recently saw a chart that made a non-scientific forward-projection of data from a not-yet-peer-reviewed pre-print article. That's a lot of caveats, basically, for unvalidated ideas. It was an extremely depressing projection, though. It was a convincing "smoke 'em while you've got 'em" argument.
This page offers the pre-print, see the "Download PDF" button at the top right. The Reddit post I saw seemed to get its future projection from a source I tracked down to this Facebook image as the earliest source I could find. Here is a YouTube discussion of that chart too.
It's depressing stuff. I sympathize with David Suzuki on this one. I hope to snap out of it soon and post something positive about our collective future.
overstock>over it
Jul. 21st, 2025 07:19 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Hazel came over yesterday. Mainly I think she just wanted to get out of her apartment and stretch her legs. She didn't stay long. But, she did tell me that her son came to get them this morning and they got a guy from security to come up with a wheel chair for John to go to get blood drawn. They got there and it was closed and only then did they figure out it was today and not yesterday. They are sinking fast. I did get Martha to bring them up a wheelchair to have for a while. She runs a loaner closet where she keeps walkers and wheel chairs and all kinds of paraphernalia. Then Bonny came in for an update. So it was busy-ish. But, fine.
Our mailroom has locked boxes for each apartment for our USPS mail and a cubby for each apartment. The cubbies are not locked and are used for anything - menus, private notes, TR announcements, etc. I have a little fabric pouch on my phone that I carry my mail key in. It's always been annoying because it keeps the phone from lying flat. BUT way more annoying not to have the key when you are in the mailroom. Myrna was always having to make a special trip back home because she forgot her key. A fair number of women carry little purses around with their keys and, of course, men have pockets.
Something came up Saturday when Martha and Bonny and I were chatting about mail keys and Bonny said 'I keep one in the back of my cubby.' GENIUS!!!! She said when she first moved in she saw a woman get hers out of the back of the cubby, open her mail box, and then return the key to the cubby. 'I thought it was a great idea.' Me, too - why the fuck did you wait so long to share it??????
So. That means I now only have to carry my card key. The key that unlocks lock down areas. Like the pool after working hours. If you punch a hole in the card key, it breaks it. I think I can slip it between my phone and the case but my current case is too thin. And I
No aqua yoga today which is fine by me. The new guy is way too much inner peace and world saving and not nearly enough stretching. On the up side, his voice doesn't carry well in the pool room so I don't have to hear his crap but still, I'd sure like more good stretching. We rarely have more than two or three people in class and one of them told him the music was distracting. The music was about the only thing interesting and now it's gone. I'm guessing/hoping that soon the class will be, too. I could just quit going but I would love for their to be more water classes so I go to show support and, besides, I was the one who asked for a water stretching class.
I need gas in the car and a trip to the charity shop. I broke my heavy tissue box for the bedroom and I want another and I haven't checked for 'hair' sweaters recently, but I think I might wait until tomorrow when the house cleaner is here.

Monday At The Movies.....
Jul. 21st, 2025 06:36 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
P. A.: Is this the elevator?
J. B.: This is my ROOM!
Which Movie Does This Quote Come From?
Funny Face
1 (25.0%)
Roman Holiday
2 (50.0%)
Sabrina
0 (0.0%)
I Don't Have A Clue...
1 (25.0%)
Last Week's Movie Quote...
Semyon: Got a smoke? No?
Anton: Sorry I don't smoke.
[Anton walks away]
The Bear: He didn't recognize you. Now what?
Semyon: Nothing... He's a human now
It comes from the 2006 Russian movie, "Day Watch".
I first knew of this movie by the book series that was recommended by a former journal friend.
The book series was really good.
The movies were good too, but if I remember correctly, they didn't follow the books very well.
They are a good vs evil story telling. Light vs Dark.
Those Who Knew or Guessed Correctly...
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Slowly fixing my environment
Jul. 20th, 2025 11:53 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)

The lovely couple over the door are my great grandparents on my father's side. Prussian soldier and wife. Reminds me of Crosby's 'Triad'
Your mother's ghost stands at your shoulder
Got a face like ice, just a little colder
Saying, "You cannot do that, it breaks all the rules
You learned in schools"
The reverse wall is my quiet chair, the place I typically use to meditate:

At some point when I first set up our retail space for Friendly Computers I ran across this neon monkey. It was in the store window and then in my office window and now on the wall behind my chair. When he first met my mom at an age when he could barely talk he called her Monkey. And, of course, the way things went she was Monkey for the rest of her life and has watched over me and now meditates with me. I can't make the colors come out right. It is not so garish. It is also on an Alexa routine and comes on every evening shutting off at bedtime. She is accompanied by two amazing paintings by a friend of hers and a small landscape by one of her ancestors who was a Southwest painter. So they no doubt talk at night.
All in all I'm happy with things for the moment. There may still be some rearranging. I took down a huge picture of a sailing ship that belonged to my grandfather. I saved it but it takes up wall space that could contain a couple of other hangings, yet to be determined. I'm giving it some more thought.
But things are picked up and cleaned and neat. For the moment.
overcast
Jul. 20th, 2025 08:05 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Yesterday was just a lovely day of OMG-I-am-so-lucky-to-live-here. It just slaps me upside the head sometimes in the most wonderful way.
Today I had nothing on the agenda until I got a text from Richard (one of my volleyball buds and husband of Martha) asking if I would be willing to take him to Costco today to get a new battery for his car. Happy to. He says it will take an hour. Richard is one of those guys who has his own way of doing things and that is coupled by his extreme thrift. He spent his life teaching and then managing teachers of special education. In fact, turns out, one of the teachers he managed years ago, was Jan - the woman who just moved into Myrna's apartment!
So I'll meet him out at the elbow at 10. He has exceedingly long legs. It will be fun to watch them fold into the Smart Car.
Last week, when I took Martha to Fred Meyers, we stopped at Krispy Kreme and I took some mini donuts to elbow coffee. Everyone oood and awed at the donuts and I explained that they had Martha to thank and then they oood and awed at Martha "you got to ride in the little car???!!!" It was pretty funny.
We'll be home in time for baseball. The Mariners beat Houston in a walk off long after I was asleep.
Guess I'd better get dressed. And I need to put in a load of laundry and unload the dishwasher.

why no USA cyberfinance infrastructure?
Jul. 20th, 2025 09:13 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
After a recent discussion with brian_bogue about costs of online transactions, I have to wonder publicly a question that I've pondered before:
Why doesn't the USA provide infrastructure for the online economy?
The USA for the last 2 centuries has provided infrastructure for physical money. It performed the costly services of minting coins and printing bills, even vaults and security for storing gold-backed money, so why doesn't it provide the online equivalent? No, I absolutely do not mean selecting a favored cybercurrency. I mean providing the network and database to process microtransactions, providing the bare minimum necessary to maintain a financial system. Why should they? Using a credit/debit card includes notoriously high fees even on tiny transactions. That's profit, sure, but it's profit to some corporation siphoning its benefits from the currency of the nation. This non-cash issue came to the foreground of some news stories during the start of the pandemic, when some businesses decided to not accept cash, since it was thought to be a potential vector for virus transmission.
The currency of the nation seems to be the national government's responsibility, right? I've tried to read up on the Constitution's wording, but clearly I'm not the first to be confused by its vagueness.
My argument is this: The USA federal government is responsible for the creation of durable (enduring frequent transaction between citizens and corporations) money. In the modern age, that transaction is digital, so the USA federal government should be responsible for creating that enduring methodology, and that means providing a "currency network" of servers and databases which people may access "for free" (paid by taxes) with the same ease and zero-transaction-cost of using physical money.
So... does anyone know why we don't do that? It seems obvious to me that we should.
WTF News.....
Jul. 19th, 2025 06:11 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
And then Newsom turns around and does shit like this.......
Gavin Newsom agrees with anti-trans talking points on yet another MAGA podcast
The California governor spent more than four hours on the Shawn Ryan Show talking about, among other things, trans athletes, gender-affirming care, and "the whole 'pronoun' thing."
By S. Baum
https://www.advocate.com/news/newsom-shawn-ryan-podcast?utm_source=equalpride&utm_campaign=0bbdcf96cb-EMAIL_CAMPAIGN_2025_07_18_11_36&utm_medium=email&utm_term=0_11dd7c7578-0bbdcf96cb-361572401&mc_cid=0bbdcf96cb&mc_eid=35a3668b36
Family
Jul. 19th, 2025 02:22 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I have to watch the dogs. Aunt has two standard Poodles who probably eat steak at the table with napkins tucked into their collars. I'd so much love to visit too but I need to do my hair.
Keating had a sailboat. I've never seen it but I think it is pretty good size. Moored since long before he died at a dock in lake Tyler. Knowing what I do about boats I'm sure it is barely salvageable and, if so, for a bunch of money.
Dana texted me and said that Aunt didn't want to sell the boat but was offering it to me for free.
I'm pretty sure she wouldn't be able to give the boat away. Maybe could sell it to someone on a coast for a few bucks but likely not even that.
If I were in my 20s I'd look at it. Now I wouldn't even get close enough to count the wasp nests.
There are few things I'd like to do more than go out on the blue water on a good sailboat for a day or two. Or sail over to the the Caribbean from Florida. But a man has to know his limitations.
I'll just stay here and mind the dogs, thank you very much.
Old
Jul. 19th, 2025 11:31 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Last night I watched my first Mariner game of the season and it really was fun. When the broadcasters started saying stupid shit, I just hit mute until after the commercial and then turned the sound back on. It worked fine, plus I had closed captioning on anyway. At bedtime, I watched more on my tablet while listening to my book in bed. Glad I spent the $25.
My neighbor across the hall - the Jim who moved in a month after I did - is declining pretty fast. Physically he's fine. Mentally, he's melting. His doctor has told him he cannot drive any more. And he's apparently going to take the advice. He asked me this morning if I'd help him sell his car. He has a Tesla. I just 'chatted' with the local Ford dealership and they will buy it. Yes, I know there are many more ways and he could get lots more money with some of the other ways but... the point is to make the car belong to someone else. That is the only point. So I'm going to suggest the way that is easiest. I may have to end up driving it myself.
Living with old people is a constantly changing environment, that is for absolute sure.
Now I need to go find a remote. I have this wall clock that needs the time changed and taking it down would probably involve wall repair so I need to find the damn remote. It's not in the obvious places so I need to start on the non obvious places. Sigh.
